1. Make sure you own a nice bed.
2. Sleep in it frequently.
3. Remember how nice it feels to flip over your pillow to the cooler side.
4. Check your pulse and hum along to the rhythm because it is music.
5. Write clear and make a lot of spelling errors. Get the poison out and don’t worry about it being neat.
6. If you can, do not shut people out. You will have good days and they should see them.
7. If you feel overwhelmed, go outside and scream. Find a nice empty park in the middle of the night and scream as loud as you can until your throat is bleeding. The world wants to hear you.
8. Let yourself fall in love. Believe it or not, there are people out there who want your blacks and blues.
9. Keep waking up.
10. Keep waking up.
11. Keep waking up. Maybe with someone next to you.
tips on how to keep going | Caitlyn Siehl (via perfect)
In the soft dirt your mother kneels like a lighthouse,
cups her hand around a firefly and dims its glow until you are able
to hold it without fear of being burned.
Only days later she teaches you the names of every plant in the garden,
including the ones you already know as tomatoes,
their green bulbs hard as her calloused palms.
In the years following, when you are all soft breasts and aching heart,
she will teach you the names of all the men she fell in love with
when she was still growing into her own body
just like all the swollen fruit buried among the dirt.
Then she will teach you how to sprinkle your strawberries with sugar
to sweeten the taste even more, to get all you can out of them,
how she licked the salt from the skin of every man that crossed her bed
and tasted every centimeter of them.
When winter comes, everything vanishes underground.
Only a layer of snow remains.
Then, your mother will tell you tales of every breakup,
every open door and night spent alone
after months on end of sleeping with another warm body in the sheets.
She will teach you how sometimes the garden
is like the end of falling out of love,
how sometimes your roots will weaken and dissolve.
But when summer comes again, as it always does,
the fruits and vegetables will develop new roots
and figure out how to grow again.